Last year, before Christmas, I published a post about how to handling stress during exams. I’ve never been the best at handling this myself, but as I’m finishing up my studies, I've reflected on things that works and what I should've steered clear of. During my whole academic career, I've suffered through so many ups and downs, and to be honest, I believe it hurt my mental health more than I ever thought it would when I was in middle school. I was scarred in ways I didn't even imagine.

But don't get me wrong. There are good (and secure) aspects of studying and still being in school. I'm almost done with my Bachelor's degree and I'm a tiny bit terrified of what's to come when I don't have the safety net of being a student anymore. I'm going to be thrown into adult life and no amount of preparation will actually prepare me for the real deal.

I'm down to my last 5 months of school now. The day I've been looking forward to since being a pre-schooler is closing in with rapid steps and I don't really have any place to hide. My goal was always to finish high school, get into a good college, then graduate and get a job and earn a lot of money and then start living my life. I.e. travelling, experiencing, simply living.

As I'm getting closer to this day, the vision seems blurrier than it initially looked from afar. But I'm excited, even though I'm walking blindly towards the end.

"I know I am intelligent, because I know that I know nothing"

ON MY MINDEllen B.Comment